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My Friday Story - The Last Patient

"YOU GOT MAIL, MOTHERFUCKER" - that voice recorder will be played when I received new email **hehehe** Isn't it COOL!? **smile** Once you in the Technology line (IT), you sure be getting all things "junks".. either you download it, attachment from friends and what-so-ever shit **hehehe**

Back to my point here, this email was forwarded from a friend. At first I was so so so wanting to delete it (to be honest, to lazy to read) but when I scroll down towards to the end of the story.. it's just strike me. So, I read it and I think it would be great to share with you all.

Check the story out - The last patient...

As a young child I had the honor to spend a great deal of time with my father. He was a young Orthopedic Doctor and made house calls. As I recall we would visit his patients once a week. I'm sure they were all important, but; the one I remember was a young girl Jill, that was my age and lived in an iron lung. She had polio. We became friends; I think my first one. All the other patients were older and it seemed more like work when we visited.

I remember Jill's house as square and sitting in the middle of a double lot with large pecan trees around it, very symmetrical. It was cool during the hot Texas summers we didn't have air conditioners then. I remember that it was pleasant to go to her house, it was cool and it didn't smell like some of the other "houses". Patients in casts and traction don't get to bathe very well. Let's just say it didn't smell pleasant and neither does infection.

I liked to go to Jill's house. As were drove up I anticipated the feel of the cool air as we walked up the walk to the large front porch. You couldn't tell from the outside what you would find as you opened the front door. In the middle of the front room was an iron lung. I think it was placed there not so much because it wouldn't fit in the other room's, but that Jill's parents wanted her to have chance to meet everyone that visited. They had a chair beside her for me to sit and talk to her when we came.It was always nice to talk with Jill. She was my age. I would tell her about ! what I was doing. She would tell me about what she could remember doing and what she wished she could do. Kid's stuff. It seems as though the visit was all about us. I would talk to Jill and my Dad would talk to her parents. They would check on us once in a while.

I guess when they got finished we would go; but I didn't want to, our conversations were never over. Jill was my first friend/patient. I liked being there. I looked forward to our visits and so did she. We always had unfinished things to talk about. It seemed as though I was important then.One day we were on our visits. As we left the "last" patient and were driving down the road, my Dad didn't make the turn to Jill's house. "Dad you missed the turn to Jill's house."
He said "Jill's not with us anymore". I didn't understand. I hadn't finished our last conversation. We had things to talk about. It was "my job".I wonder why people need to hear "everything happens to us for a reason, and it serves us", or, "ponder what you want people to say at your funeral", or many others sayings.

I was given the gift of "knowing" that every moment could be my last since I was six. It might not be what you want, you may not like it but please don't waste it. Jill never made me feel like some day we wouldn't talk. Thank you Jill.

So.. I believed the moral of the story is.. LIVE YOU LIFE TO THE FULLEST CUZ YOU WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT.. **winking smile**

posted by syaq @ 2:18 PM 0 comments

the moral stroy of - The Beauty or the Beast..

King Arthur was imprisoned by an evil monarch. The monarch offered to free Arthur, as long as he could answer
the question: What do woman really want? Arthur spoke to everyone he knew, nut no-one could give him a satisfactory answer.

Finally, he consulted a witch, who was hunchbacked and hideous. She told him, What a woman really wants is to be in charge of her own life. However, in returns for the answer, she wanted to marry Arthur. He had no choice but to agree.

That night, Arthur, steeling himself in a horrific experience, entered the bedroom. But instead, he saw the most beautiful woman he had ever seen on the bed. The witch told Arthur that she was under a curse, which allowed
her to be the beautiful woman she was only for the day.

Which would he prefer? Arthur decided that he would allow her to make her own choice. Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time.

The moral of the story? If you don't let a woman have her way, things are going to get ugly (Yeah! WOMEN POWER!!)

posted by syaq @ 12:05 PM 8 comments

People Confess: What Makes Them Fall in Love..

Most people have a hard "enough" time admitting that they've fallen in love with another, never mind explaining what brought on such "euphoria" in the first place (got this word from the dictionary.. - it means A feeling of great happiness or well-being) **smile** Even women -- the fairer, more verbal sex -- rarely go into detail about how their hearts were won. Maybe that's just because, according to an old Chinese proverb, "Couples who love each other tell each other a thousand things without talking." Um, right!

Do you ever wonder what makes you fall in love with someone? (aha! question of the day!?) If you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, do you know why you fall in love with him/her? What makes you fall in love with him/her? Do you ever thought about it before? I bet you do or maybe you don't, but again.. what.. what makes you fall in love? **deep thiking smile**

No doubt that everybody falls in love, but what actually triggers it? Mm.. sometimes you fall in love with someone without any reasons, you just fall in love.. I always asked this question to my girlfriend "boyfriend" - what makes you fall in love with her? Oh well! most of them said "I just fall in love with her, no reason. love don't need any reason why you fall in love". His answer striked me.. well, he got a point there but again everything happened for a REASON. There's MUST be a reason why you fall in love? There MUST be a reason what makes you fall in love? (damn! now I know that sometimes LOVE can just make you feel so fucking confused) **hehehe**

I managed to read some stuffs here and there about this matter, let's check it out what "outside" people have to say about this.. **winking smile** Here are their comments:

"I fell in love with my fiance, and I didn't even see it coming. One day I didn't get a chance to see her and found myself missing her smile, her laugh, her smell. You begin to recognize, expect and miss the way she does things or makes you feel. And then she surprises you, and you love her even more. I love the way she walks, moves, even the way she puts things in her purse."

"I fall in love with someone who can make me laugh, who makes me smile the moment I hear her voice or see her face, who can make me forget everything else going on around me. Her presence alone is enough to make me feel like the most important person in the world. (She should feel the same way about herself in my presence. It's a two-way street.)"

"Let's look at love like a body of water. To reach the deep end, you must first travel through the shallow end. With that in mind, I feel that initially there has to be physical attraction. It's also important to 'like' the woman before you can love her. I think when it all comes down to it, what makes me fall in love with a woman is being able to talk with her. Every guy I know who's in love has a story that sounds something like this: 'I think this could be it. The other night, we just talked for like eight hours with no uncomfortable silence!'"

"I love it when women can do guy stuff better than me. Everyone is a better driver than I am -- in fact, everyone's blind, drunken grandmother is a better driver than I am -- so that doesn't count, but women who do things like eating hot peppers or belching or enjoying war movies make me crazy in the good way."

There you go.. the comments. What do you think? So.. what makes you fall in love?

Note: Desmond, I hope noone "outside" there will fall in love with women ass as their main reason what makes they fall in love? **hehehe + winking smile**

posted by syaq @ 11:05 AM 0 comments

Through The Rain - anybody need an umbrella?

Woke up this morning, feeling so damn fucking sleepy (always have problem waking up in morning especially on weekdays lately) **hehehe** I said to myself - "Damn! there I go again, facing another day - what next?!" **winking smile** I walked towards to my lit' window in my room, Oh! boy.. the beach looks so calm **ahawww!!** I just took a deep breath and let go slowly.. look around my room.. turn on my "astro - channel V.. channel that I like.." and saw Mariah "Mimi" Carey music video "Through the rain".. Out of sudden, I felt the vibration of the song. Felt so damn alive.. **smile** Sometimes when you listen to a song that really captured your attention, you can feel the vibration and your hair starting to "stand up", know what I mean.. else forget about it la!!!!.

Reached office, I download the song lyrics, read thru.. Not bad at all. You know what! when you are in doubt in any situation.. example: like you felt down, de-motivated, sad bla-bla-bla.. kinda good to listen to these type of songs just to boost your self-esteem up, know what I mean.. (well! Desmond asked me to sing YNWA song when I'm sad..) **winking smile**

So, here's Mariah song lyrics.. maybe it will help you in a way..

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught and in pain
Without anyone
We keep prayin’ to saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can’t
Find your way home
You can get there alone
It’s okay What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on Step fastly
And you’ll find what you need
To prepare

And when the wind moves
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid There’s nothing you can’t face
And sure they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stay calm and sane

**thanks mariah carey! for providing us with such a beautiful songs to keep people like me.. to fucking MOVING ON**

my fav quote: "Everyone must go through a storm to get to a rainbow."

posted by syaq @ 10:14 AM 0 comments

"Is it love you're feeling or just an infatuation?"..

This is what I believe, "Infatuation is instant desire" - one set of glands calling to another. "Love is friendship" - that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time (I think la!!) **smile**

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager but not genuinely happy (I'm too sure of this, as I don't really experience it before but most of my girlfriends do) **winking smile** There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine to closely. It might spoil the dream.

Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real! (I can't prove it but you just have to experience it yourself than you will understand) **smile** It gives you "strength" and "grows" beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his/her presence, even when he/she is away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know he/she is yours and you can wait (so, do you understand what it means now - or you too stuck up to admit you are..) **winking smile**

Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing him." Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together you hope it will end in intimacy. Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship that makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When he's away, you wonder if he is cheating. Sometimes you check and hired the private investigator **sigh!**

Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. He/She feels your trust, and it makes him/her even more trustworthy (depands how lucky you are to get a guy/gurl that knows how to really, really appreciate you else F-U-C-K it)

Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.

Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before (ahaww! just love this feeling, it just make you feeling so alive)

Special note:

To all my girlfriends - may you find your soulmate that treat you like an angel, honour your heart like a diamond and appreciate the unconditional love given by you for always.

To all my boyfriends - may you find your soulmate that treat you like a devil - opps.. sorry dudes.. treat you like a M-A-N!!

And for myself - keep on waiting.. (Oi! whoever you are, don't take your own fucking time la.. can't wait too long.. later no VALUE) **hehehe**

posted by syaq @ 12:32 PM 3 comments

stevie wonders says - conversation's peace..

Someone asked me to download this song lyrics and try to understand what it means. He said that this song lyrics is so so suitable for me (I guess when he listened to this song, he just tot of me - ahawww!) **smile**. So.. I managed to download it (still I don't know how the song sound like). I still have puzzled with the meaning of this song - Mmm.. (how ah!)

Check this out..

Staring right at 2000 AD
As if mankind's atrocities to man has no history
But just a glance at life in 2000 BC
We find traces of man's inhumanity to man
There's no mystery

All for one, one for all
There's no way we'll reach our greatest heights
Unless we heed the call
Me for you, you for me
There's no chance of world salvation
Less the conversation's peace

We can't pause, watch and say "no" this can't be
When there's a plan by any means to have
Cleansing of one's ethnicity
And we shouldn't act as if we don't hear nor see
Like the holocaust of six million Jews and
A hundred and fifty million blacks during slavery

When publicly or privately convened
May love, positivity and life's preservation be the basic theme
And shouuld you put your trust in some prophet in life
Give him trust but your faith must stay with the one
Who gave the ultimate sacrifice for...

Note: which part of the song that really suitable on me ah? **hehehe**

posted by syaq @ 11:25 AM 0 comments

My farewell Dinner...

Before we end our farewell dinner, me and Lyn May need to give a farewell speech. How I wish I remember what I said.. but one thing for sure, I didn't use my favorite word la (if you guys read my blog, you should know!!) **winking smile**

posted by syaq @ 5:19 PM 4 comments

The fear of dating.. are you not?

Do you remember the line from the movie, "When Harry Met Sally," in which soon-to-be-married Marie and Jess are lying in bed after consoling their friends, Harry and Sally? Marie turns to Jess and says, "Please tell me I will never have to be out there again!" There is a good chance, if you are reading this blog, that you and/or a close friend are back out there, again, in the dating arena. For many, the re-entry to meeting new people and dating is downright scary; it is the last thing they truly want to do. I am sure that most of us, at some point in our lives, have uttered a similar phrase to the one that Marie shared with Jess. It is unfortunate, today, that relationships end at such an alarming rate (do you agree with me?!)

These endings put us back in that place we all detest **smile** Once again, we must force ourselves back out there to find that special, unique person with whom to share our love and our life (darn! not again.. ya! ya! I know) Some of us have no problem returning to the dating scene. We feel it is like riding a bicycle: we never forget how to do it. Others, though, are left with unresolved hurts: self esteem issues and traumas from past relationships (ehem! like myself - sigh!) Many feel, based on past experiences, that it is just not worth the effort: they are prepared to go it alone (that MOFO caused me this, shit!!) **argh** Some may find themselves suddenly and surprisingly single, after having been in a very long-term relationship. Today it is not uncommon to find people single again after 10 - 25 years of being in a loving relationship.

Each day I meet single men and women (mostly are my circle-of-friends) I hear the excuses of why they are not dating and trying to meet the one for them. Excuses like:

I will never love again; my ex was the only one for me.
I do not know how to do this dating thing.
I have trouble meeting people.
I am too old.
I am not attractive anymore.
I have children.
My job is too demanding.
I have no time.
I will never trust someone again.
I am not capable of loving.

These are just a few of the excuses that come to my mind, right now (damn! I just can't think more at this moment): excuses that prevent people from re-entering the dating scene **winking smile** One thing, though, I have learned in my life: life just is not as much fun when you are alone. At some point, after getting over the hurt from the last relationship -- and dealing with any past emotional baggage -- you need to get back into the saddle again, so to speak (agree with me, people?!) **rolling eyes smile** Dating and meeting new people should be a fun experience -- not a fearful one. Sure, we all have had the date from hell, but I am sure the nice experiences outweigh the occasional bad ones.

In order to get back to dating, you have to remove your fears (it takes time to move the fears away, not an easy task to do - been there!) **winking smile** This is your key to successfully making dating a fun experience (if you ever manage to clorox your fear away la) Should you have difficulties with your fears associated with dating, I would advise that you seek the counsel of a good friend who might have gone through the same thing, or consult a professional to help you overcome your fears (thanks Desmond, Yan and CK! you are my professional helpers) **huggies**

You might say to yourself, "I am a loser, I'm fucking useless" (I did this a lot of times - countless) **sigh** And most of my professional helpers will said "No you are not!" Now all you have to do is lose your fears, put out the effort to meet new people, date, and have fun. Eventually, you will find the one for you (I will find mine.. else I will re-consider becoming a lesbo) **hehehe**

Movie quote from "Fool Rush In" - "You will never know love unless you surrender to it"

posted by syaq @ 2:27 PM 2 comments

the upside of my anger...

I was at the "Torch" yesterday, enjoying my coke with lemon and the music playing on the air. I was at the bar chatting with Jessy (the owner of the pub) about cars. Out of the sudden, when I look around, there's one spot that catched my eyes, the "fusball" corner. Sue! Sue! How I miss Sue so much.. wonder what is she doing now at that moment in time. Hardly see the guys too - Spida, Joe, Najib and Nikki. Miss the moments.

Oh ya! Jessy and me managed to play one game of fusball - Damn!.. I LOST!! This is the moment I need SUE!! SUE! H-E-L-P.. **hehehe** (Miss you badly, gurl)

A friend drop by, Jit and we enjoyed each other company. We discuss lots of stuffs, what stuffs? **winking smile** Basically, he was commenting about my blog. He said I published too much stuffs that related with anger, frustration and bla-bla-bla. Well! I guess that is what BLOG is fucking for **smile**

When I reached home and jump in on my bed, I re-call back our conversation regards on anger, sad, frustration and whatever shit that related to that la.. And I think ANGER and RESENTMENT can stop you in your tracks, that's what I know now.. **Sigh!**

It needs nothing to burn but the air and the life that it swallows and smothers. It's real, though.. the FURY.. even when it isn't. It can "change" you, "turn" you, "mold" you and "shape" you into someone you are not. The only upside to ANGER, then is the person you become. Hopefully someone that wakes up one day, and reliazes they are not afraid of it's journey.

Someone that knows that the truth is at best, a partially told sotry. That ANGER, like "growth", comes in spurts and fits and in it's wake leaves a new chance at acceptance and promise of calm.

Then again, what would I know.. I know no SHIT!!

That's LIFE!!! - right! Jit..

posted by syaq @ 1:41 PM 0 comments

Where is the One safe place..?

How I wish now at this moment of time, someone would just "hug" me tight and whisper to me "everything going to be fine, you wait and see.. you will find your one safe place" **smile**

Checked out the poem as per below:

How many roads you've travelled
How many dreams you've chased
Across sand and sky and gravel
Looking for one safe place

Will you make a smoother landing
When you break and full from grace
Into the arms of understanding
Looking for one safe place

Life is trial of fire
And love's the sweetest taste
And I pray it lifts us higher
To one safe place

Note: where is my one safe place? when will i be getting my one safe place? Or there's no fucking one fucking safe place for me at all.. (it's just an impression, readers - just an impression!!)

posted by syaq @ 9:44 AM 0 comments

Love or Lust???

People call it LOVE. People call it LUST. But what is it actually?

To me it is a blend of LOVE and LUST infact, lust within love. Isn't it? LOVE is emotional, or I should say psychological. And LUST is physiological. "God" had been wise enough to put a balance between physiology and psychlogy. Thats why love is there, and so is the lust.

A lots of explanations have been given on emotional part of love. It's true too, I agree with that. But, it's not the 'psyche' we love, its the person himself/herself. So love is physiological too, and that's nothing other that "LUST".

What do you say friends? **winking smile"

posted by syaq @ 7:18 PM 2 comments

Punching Depression...

I've got these stifled feelings
I can't feel
Did I hurt myself too badly? Why can't I feel?

Cigarettes contain carbon monoxide
Take a Xantax and fall
Money, power, greed
Disgust

I need to get back to where I was feeling good about quitting
Listening to Cocteau Twins
Feeling good again
What's going on?

Do I not have enough structure?
What's wrong with me God?
What's wrong with me God?

I need to feel now
real strong I need to feel, feel, feel
I need to feel...is the essence of drug addiction
It's a bummer I'm not an addict

The good has slipped my mind
I've misplaced it
I gotta pick it up again
These things normally pass with time

My emotions are a rollercoaster
So I sit and stare
I hesitate before taking my next drag
And everything is falling into a dull groan
These things come and go
but for me they stay too long

Eyes hardly openseeking numbness.W h y.....
People seek numbness
They clench their teeth their hearts pounding faster
Damn it this is no good
Sometimes they begin to pound in rage

Beat it out, just keep beating it
Anger! sadness! regret! now it's numb
Just keep pounding
Head hangs low
It feels better to feel nothing

posted by syaq @ 4:42 PM 0 comments

Love on the Other Side of the Fence ..

We all have heard the old cliché, "The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence." So how do we feel about love on the other side of the fence? Is love on the other side of the fence better? In some cases, it is, but in many cases, it is not.

I have encountered many people, over the years, who find themselves in a new relationship after searching in greener pastures. These same people, however, eventually miss their old partner whom they know, in their heart of hearts, was the one for them.

I know a lot of people think of their lives the way I thought of mine. Sometimes you feel lonely and unloved. You feel as if there has got to be more to life, so you set out to find someone who can make you blissfully happy. You believe that you have found that someone and decide he is exactly what you want. So you pack up and say goodbye to all.

You live the glorious life for a few years and then a light bulb goes on in your head. You realize that you have exactly the life that you had before - You realize that love does not just happen; it must be nurtured through the years. You cannot undo what has been done, so you settle for a lonely and loveless life with emptiness in your heart.

In my opinion, this is a very unrealistic expectation. We cannot expect a relationship or another individual to make us "blissfully happy." We have to be happy within ourselves, first and foremost. Establishing a relationship with the right person should only enhance our happiness in life.

If you are currently exploring the question, "Am I happy in my current relationship?" If you are currently single and asking yourself, "Am I ready for a relationship?" We have to incorporate the art of loving into our daily lives, as individuals, and as part of a couple in a loving, committed relationship. With this understanding, and while practicing the art of loving, you will be able honestly to answer some very important questions to yourself: "Are you the one for me?" and "Are you not the one for me?"

Note: in love also "wrong", not in-love also "wrong". married also "wrong", not marry also "wrong" - so now WHAT??

posted by syaq @ 4:30 PM 0 comments

Love = Life Fear = No Life

Every week, without fail, someone either writes or approaches me with the question: "What have you learned about love?" It is a difficult question to answer completely, because, every day, I learn something new. Each day I watch the world, and I am given new lessons, not only about love, but also about fear. Since I am not one to ignore or avoid a challenge, I will give you what would be my answer to this question today:

I learned that money and possessions do not bring love and happiness to life. I have learned that, in the words of Katherine Anne Porter, "Love must be learned, and learned again and again; there is no end to it." I have learned that life and the lives of the ones you love are happening now and today. This is not a dress rehearsal for another life you will have later... Live it with love now.

For so many years, my priorities were wrong. This caused bad choices and unhappiness for me and for those I loved. Priorities are a key component to a more fulfilling, loving life. My four top priorities are as follows: 1) Myself, 2) My Spouse or Partner, 3) My Family, which includes children, and 4) Work or Career. In my opinion, this has to remain constant to experience true love of oneself, which allows one to share a journey of rising love with a partner, which, in turn, is the example partners must set for their children and for all people they encounter in life.

Love is an action. Treat it as such. Actions speak louder than words when it comes to love.

I judge no other man or woman in this world. This it is not my right. I respect everyone for who they are, as individuals, and treat them equally with love and respect.

In my opinion, love is rising, not falling. You must love yourself, be happy and complete, in order to be capable of sharing a rising love with another. What we should seek is that unique individual who complements us and stimulates our mind, body, spirit, and soul. It has to be all or nothing: partial is not acceptable. To have a truly rising, loving journey with a partner, we must share erotic, platonic, romantic, practical, philosophical, intellectual, and enduring love with one another.

I recognize the importance and beauty of touch. I have no fear of embracing another with a warm hug, or holding a loved one anytime and anywhere. I love to touch the one I love. I love holding hands with the one I love. It is the art of touch that makes loving so sweet. Touch has brought out my feminine side. We all, as men and women, need a balance of yin and yang, both masculine and feminine, to experience love all the time in our lives.

The most important lesson I ever learned : the lesson of unconditional love. We all came into this world with unconditional love. We were brought into this world as the purest form of love imaginable. Why did we change? Why are there so many sad, unhappy, and troubled people in the world today? Why are there so many divorces? Why is there so much violence in the world? Why are our young people committing suicide and performing such serious acts of violence and aggression? Why do so many children grow up with only one parent? Why are road rage and air rage such common occurrences today? I could fill a book with these types of questions that cross my mind, each day, as I watch the evening news and read the newspapers of the world. Why is all this happening? I believe the reason is this: we are not choosing love. Too many of us have forgotten the unconditional love we knew when we entered this world.

We constantly hear so many songs of love. Today, one comes to my mind: "What The World Needs Now Is Love Sweet Love." Why do we not choose love? This is a question that the great minds of all time have explored. More books, television programs, movies, and articles in magazines and newspapers have been written, and, yet, still so many of us choose not to love. Why? It is beyond my understanding why we, as intelligent beings, would choose to live in such hate, chaos, toxicity, dysfunction, and most importantly FEAR!!!!! My equation for you to think about is very simple: LOVE = LIFE, FEAR = NO LIFE. There truly is no in between. I choose LOVE. I have seen what FEAR can do to my life and to the lives of my loved ones and so many others in the world's population.

With the beginning of the new millennium, maybe it is time to start recognizing this most important choice. Each of us faces the choice between LOVE and FEAR everyday. Let us all begin this new century with the intelligence and awareness to choose LOVE over FEAR. Love is the biggest gift you can give to anyone, especially to yourself. Love is the cure to the problems we face each and every day. It is our choice. Fear is a choice that will continue to negatively affect our world unless we do something about it. In my opinion there is no room for FEAR in our world. There is only room for more LOVE.

posted by syaq @ 4:13 PM 0 comments

You Not Walking Alone - sing when you sad..

I felt that I'm facing a 1st degree life stress, sometimes the "shit" thought of - fuck! how I wish I just die **rolling eye** Ya! ya! I know, I know - I'm not the only fucking shit that facing the 1st degree life stress. Well, people out there are facing even worst than me (don't give me that look or lecturing, ok - I had enough!!). I should be lucky that I'm still alive each time I woke up in the morning. I should be thankful for what I have infront of me now **smile**

I received an email from a good friend of mine, Desmond **smile** Everytime he got to find out that I'm not being myself, he always try his very best to cheer me up no matter what (right, D!?). Guess what! He even asked me to sing Liverpool theme song when I'm feeling sad. Mm.. I had to think twice tho **smile**. I don't want to betray Man United (no hard feelings Man United supporters) but honestly, I find YNWA song is very uplifting song, you know what I mean (let's see it in a positive way, ya!). They have such a self-motivate lyrics, which I kinda like it (Damn! I just can't believe I'm fucking saying this) **hehehe** But, I just don't even know how to sing this "shit" song. I got the lyrics but I don't even... **argh** forget it. I like the lyrics ONLY, let's keep that way!!



Ladies and Gentlemen, I present you.. LIVERPOOL Theme Song

When you walk through a storm
hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone

Desmond, Thanks for letting me know and keep reminding me that I'm not walking alone **huggies**

posted by syaq @ 10:50 AM 3 comments