:::Broken Innocence Insights:::

what so beautiful about Penang...

Can't really see a single thing but this is how it looks like. By the way, all the pictures are taken with my phone camera.. so.. the resolution are not that good.

posted by syaq @ 3:58 PM 1 comments

faces around you...

Had a company meeting yesterday. Ate buffet dinner with our business partners. Had fun last night with all my colleagues. Ate a lot by the way..

While everyone busy with their stuffs, I walked away from the crowd and sit at one corner. Observing each and everyone in the room. I saw laughing faces, serious faces (I guess they are busying discussing something) and indescribable faces.. **winking smile** I turned my face away and saw myself in the mirror.. there you go.. a face which I don't even know how to start off.. **sigh** Well, enough about me..

What I'm trying to say here is that all the faces that I saw in the room, they’re respected by people around them, they're loved by people around them, they're celebrated even.. by people around them. And that made me feel like I could do anything. I didn’t have to explain, or justify anything, or apologise... ­ I could just choose to do what I want to do and see how people reacted...

Quote - "Perhaps after all our worries and questions, we’ll discover that all along God had the right thing at the right time for us. Perhaps His plan is more wonderful than anything we could create by ourselves - whether it comes with 'pomp and blare,' or quietly, 'like an old friend.' Perhaps... perhaps... we should entrust our questions of 'How?' and 'Who?' and 'When?' into His tender care."

posted by syaq @ 9:32 AM 2 comments

Gilbert Cartoon - Quotes Contest...

Received an email from my friend, Kumar. Check out the best 10 quotes in Gilbert Cartoon Quote Contest...

A magazine recently ran a "Dilbert quotes" contest. They were looking forpeople to submit quotes from their real-life dilbert-type managers. Here are the top ten finalists:

1. "As of tomorrow, employees will only be able to access the building usingindividual security cards. Pictures will be taken next Wednesday andemployees will receive their cards in two weeks."(This was the winning quote from Fred Dales, Microsoft Corp. in Redmond, WA)

2. "What I need is an exact list of specific unknown problems we mightencounter."(Lykes Lines Shipping)

3. "E-mail is not to be used to pass on information or data. It should beused only for company business."(Accounting manager, Electric Boat Company)

4. "This project is so important, we can't let things that are moreimportant interfere with it."(Advertising/Marketing manager, United Parcel Service)

5. "Doing it right is no excuse for not meeting the schedule."(Plant manager, Delco Corporation)

6. "No one will believe you solved this problem in one day! We've beenworking on it for months. Now, go act busy for a few weeks and I'll let youknow when it's time to tell them."(R&D supervisor, Minnesota Mining and Manufacturing 3M Corp.)

7. Quote from the Boss: "Teamwork is a lot of people doing what I say."(Marketing executive, Citrix Corporation)

8. My sister passed away and her funeral was scheduled for Monday. When Itold my Boss, he said she died on purpose so that I would have to miss workon the busiest day of the year. He then asked if we could change her burial to Friday. He said, "That would be better for me."(Shipping executive, FTD Florists)

9. "We know that communication is a problem, but the company is not going todiscuss it with the employees."(Switching supervisor, AT&T Long Lines Division)

10. One day my Boss asked me to submit a status report to him concerning aproject I was working on. I asked him if tomorrow would be soon enough. He said, "If I wanted it tomorrow, I would have waited until tomorrow to askfor it!"(Hallmark Cards Executive)

7. Quote from the Boss: "Teamwork is a lot of people doing what I say."(Marketing executive, Citrix Corporation)

8. My sister passed away and her funeral was scheduled for Monday. When Itold my Boss, he said she died on purpose so that I would have to miss workon the busiest day of the year. He then asked if we could change her burialto Friday. He said, "That would be better for me."(Shipping executive, FTD Florists)

9. "We know that communication is a problem, but the company is not going todiscuss it with the employees."(Switching supervisor, AT&T Long Lines Division)

10. One day my Boss asked me to submit a status report to him concerning aproject I was working on. I asked him if tomorrow would be soon enough. Hesaid, "If I wanted it tomorrow, I would have waited until tomorrow to askfor it!"(Hallmark Cards Executive)

posted by syaq @ 4:32 PM 0 comments

mixed relationship anyone?

You heard of mixed marriage/relationship before right - malay & chinese; chinese & indian; ang mo kau (mat salleh) & whichever races la.. So that is so so common. But have you ever in a mixed relationship before? Is it difficult? I guess for other races would not be a big a deal.. but for malay it would be a bit difficult. Why do I say so.. Mmm.. Oh well, SIMPLE - if you are a girl, you have to convert yourself and it goes the same thing if you are a guy.

Honestly, I been there. It sad to say that the only reason why it ended will always be the "RELIGION" issue. Why? Why it have to be an issue? I'm still wondering. Religion suppose to be in your HEART.. and it's stay there. Not meant to be place at your MOUTH. The reasons are basically either the parents or the person themselves.

Let's see the parents point of view. Why the parents take this as an issue to break someone heart? And that someone is NOT someone but their own children. Why the parents have the heart to do that to their own children? Why? Is it because the "RELIGION"!! Don't they want to see their children happy in their life? Don't they suppose to be happy to see that their children happy with someone that love their children sincerely? What is wrong with parents now these days? Or what is wrong with the "RELIGION"? What makes them the parents think that way?

Now the person point of view. What would you do when this issue arise? Will you back off by breaking up with him/her? "Oh honey, I'm sorry. I can't proceed with you nomore and have a serious relationship, it's my parents. They disagree with our relationship?" - would you say that? Or would you stand up for what you believe for? Would you take the risk to go thru the hazzles? Would you sacrifice? Love need sacrifices. You may have your own reasons why you backing off because at this moment I can't really thing of other reasons except for obeying the parents advice or you "yourself". Don't you think that sometimes you just have to stand up for your life? Why you have to walk away? Why you have to follow what your parents says? I know they are your parents but you have you own life to walk thru, right. Aren't you suppose to make your own decisons and follow it? Will you happy after you let your love one go? Do you have the heart seeing your love one heartbroken in pieces? Or maybe you just don't have any BALLS or GUTS at all? Maybe you just using him/her for something else - maybe money, sex.. etc?

I think.. it will always come back to YOU. WHAT DO YOU WANT IN YOUR LIFE? Do you want to be the puppet and let the puppet master control your life? Are you happy with that? Again, all the questions will point over to YOU. And YOU the only person should know how to answer all these questions. YOU.....

As for myself, I don't mind having another races as my soulmate. They are still human beings. The only thing that categorized us is the "RELIGION" but we are still human and nothing can changed that. As I said, we need to respect other races/religion but not by mentioning or making a point that "Hey! you can't proceed this relationship with him/her. He/she is different religion.!!" I believed that is not the right way. I maybe have difficulties with my parents or maybe not. But if I do face the difficulties.. as long as I know what really makes me happy.. meaning what makes my heart happy, I will stand up for what I believe in and hoping my partner would do the same thing. I know my partner have to sacrifice slightly more things in his side, but I will always stand beside him "not behind" him nor "not infront" of him but BESIDE him all the way thru. I know it's hard to sustain but if we do it together, the burden will not be that heavy.

There's a movie quote for this - "Marriage/Relationship has less beauty but more safety than a single life; it’s full of sorrows and full of joys. It lies under more burdens, but it is supported by all the strengths of love, and those burdens are delightful."

I hope to all the couples out there, whom still struggling in their relationship - this is for you - "Love is like a battlefield!"....

posted by syaq @ 2:06 PM 6 comments

falling in love with james blunt...

posted by syaq @ 9:37 AM 1 comments

dedicated to all couples...

Guys and Gurls, is this true? Check it out.. **smile**

When a GIRL is quiet
Millions of things are running in her mind

When a GIRL looks down
It means she's uncomfortable

When a GIRL is not arguing
She is thinking deeply

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions
She is wondering how long you will be around

When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds
She is not at all fine

When a GIRL stares at you
She is wondering why you are lying

When a GIRL lays on your chest
She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a GIRL calls you everyday
She is seeking for your attention

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday
She wants to be pampered

When a GIRL says "I love you"
She means it

When a GIRL says that she can't livewithout you
She has made up her mind that you are her future

When a GIRL says "I miss you"
No one in this world can miss you more than that

posted by syaq @ 5:27 PM 0 comments

Fed Up?

You are fed up with words, and I don't blame you.
I am nauseated by them sometimes. I
am also, to tell the truth, nauseated by ideals and with causes.
This sounds like heresy, but I think you will understand what I mean.

It is so easy to get engrossed with ideas and slogans
and myths that in the end one is left holding the bag, empty,
with no trace of meaning left in it.

And then the temptation is to yell louder than ever in order to make the meaning be there again by magic.
Going through this kind of reaction helps you to guard against this.
Your system is complaining of too much verbalizing, and it is right...

The big results are not in your hands or mine, but they suddenly happen,
and we can share in them; but there is no point in building our lives on this personal satisfaction,
which may be denied us and which after all is not that important.

posted by syaq @ 4:05 PM 0 comments

phone conversation with my daddy...

Normally, I don't really like to write my personal details in my own blog. I have my own reason why. But today conversation with my daddy.. makes me want to share. Well, I had a talk with my mummy yesterday, and I felt so bad that I make her cried. However, things are alright now between us with just one "promise".. which is.. I need to call them EVERYDAY!! Not to say that I didn't call them, which I did (maybe it's not enough for them)- but anyway, I promised her.

So, as promised.. I called home. Daddy picked up the phone. Out of sudden, my mind flew back to my memory lane. I keep on telling myself - "What would I do without my daddy?" For sure, I can't loose him now, NOT NOW. We talked - asking each other how are you? have you eaten? bla-bla-bla (normal daughter and father conversation). I guess if you are a father and you have a daughter, no matter how grown you are, you are still his "baby" girl **hehehe** Trust me! I have been there and sometimes it's a bit hard to get yourself out from there, but that is the fact.

Daddy mentioned that I have to appreciate what I have so far. And proud with it. He also said "No matter what we just can't surrender on whatever shit that we going to face (daddy never use the word "shit" tho, just me!!), we also need to strive for the best in life (up to our capabilities)" Now, I MISS my daddy..

Larry, my buddy did mentioned to me once... "Don't let the world stuff make you crazy. It's just the OPENING"..

Note: daddy & mummy.. I know for sure that you both won't be checking my blog, anyway.. I know that I caused you pain, hurt and troubled in the past.. but.. I want you both to know that no matter what happened I will always love you both with all my heart.

posted by syaq @ 10:48 AM 0 comments

once, twice, three times a ....

Try harder at making things make sense more often. Don’t lead people on with false hopes for humor when it really isn’t even funny at all

Push this button— This means you, Lady!!

posted by syaq @ 10:34 AM 0 comments

terror STRIKES malaysia...

Mmm.. I was surprised to read today newspaper. Front page - "APs awards list released". What is AP stand for? Well, it meant as Approved Permits. This is one thing I hate the most - "POLITICS". Why? Why?

posted by syaq @ 11:56 AM 1 comments

each life has it's place.. do you think so?

I certainly am not the first person to feel this way. Perhaps all of us, somehow, are seeking meaning. Many of us long for immortality. Leaving a legacy is one way for us to become immortalized. People create legacies in different ways. Some become parents: They bear children, pass on their genes, they may even pass on their wisdom, and it is through their children that they leave a legacy behind. Some people need to build something physical, like a skyscraper or a cathedral, to leave their legacy. Authors leave their books and articles. Songwriters leave their lyrics. Most of us try to leave something "concrete" behind.

However, it is unnecessary to leave behind something concrete in order to leave a legacy. What gives our lives meaning, I believe, is how we touch the lives of others. Unless we choose to live in complete isolation, we all touch the lives of other people constantly. Every interaction we have, even for the briefest moment, is an exchange of energy: it is an opportunity to affect another person either in a positive way or in a negative way. Often, we are completely unaware of the ways in which we touch or affect others. Yet we do… all the time. We do not always know why we are here (and it's still bother me soemtimes..) **sigh!**, how we can fulfill our destiny (i'm still struggling here..) **smile**, or what will give our lives meaning.

Perhaps you were put on this Earth for the one moment that you chose to smile at a stranger passing by. A small gesture, yes or maybe no..However, it is possible that that stranger was feeling utterly alone and in the depths of despair, and, unbeknownst to you, that one act of kindness, that moment of connection, influenced that person to choose to live another day… You may wonder, "What possible meaning could there be for the life of a beggar on the street?" Perhaps that beggar was put there to teach one person to feel compassion…

Even the newborn child who dies during childbirth touches the lives of a mother, relatives, and friends. That child may be teaching those around him or her about love, loss, and the preciousness of life. We cannot always know which of our actions will help us to fulfill our purpose for being on this planet. All that we can do is to do our best. We can try to remain aware and to affect the lives of others in a positive way, by smiling more often and sending good energy out to those we encounter in our daily lives.

My buddy Larry.. was telling me something to do about LIFE. There are a million things a WANT to do or succeed it, but life isn't like that for most of us. We just succeed in some things and can decide if we are happy or not. The equation of it is more like place+time+experiences+fate. You can take the most simple idea of life, or most complex that you want.

Through it all, maybe we just need simply to trust the words, "Each life has its place." Trust this. YOUR life has its place.

My wish to all - May you make that discovery with joy **huggies**

posted by syaq @ 11:43 AM 0 comments